It is warm outside. Hot. Or even hotter if possible.
This morning I took the children out to play right after breakfast. I sat down in the shadow of a big tree and tried to catch the shadow on my daughter who was in the tree pretending that she was flying a big helicopter.
Alex is seven years younger than I am. When he was tree or four I got the brilliant idea that I could pay him to tidy up my room. If he took everything up from the floor he earned six coins. The coins was “femöringar”, not in use anymore and hardly worth anything even back then.
The guilt still haunt me. Now and then I try to pay it off and we have talked about it but it is something left. Weird.
A good thing about it is that I am very sensible about what I say to children and how to get them to do stuff. One of the most important things in my opinion (nowadays) is: never lie to children, never dupe or trix them into doing things that I know that they don’t like or that they might dislike in the future. I have my bad days of course.
I did som “chocolate-nuts-and-raisins” things and manage to draw one. It is hard to just look at one and not eat.
pen and crayons
8×13 cm
The last square on this edm challange page! As you probably has understand already it has been hard. Around dinner is not my most productive time, and every morning the challange came into my mind and disapeared somewere on the way towards dinner.
Yesterday, I sat outside in the sun, drawing spots on a giraffe while my soon-to-be-four-years-old was playing in the sand. She said she was making dinner and asked me if I want some. Yes! Dinner!
Inspiration came. Hurray!
I have to practise hands some more! I like to practise on everything. This is my own hand but it looks nothing like this. I don’t want this to be another blockage so I leave it like this and I will do my hand now and then.
A couple of weeks ago I started to do the early edm challanges and the first two pages (I did them in my big sketchbook, four at a page) was a great inspiration.
I feel a lot of stress from everything right now and to sit down and just do the picture without the stress to decide what to draw was great.
And then came number nine! Draw a bit of organized chaos!! Everything is chaos. On my desk, in the apatement, in my head. I got stuck. This really blocked me and I know that this is not the intention of the challanges.
I tried to just skip it and go to the next. But the relief I felt earlier not have to choose subject made me try to fill the square in my sketchbook. I took the cap of my pen a hundred times but never succeeded. One evening I sat with my daughter as she was falling asleep. I decided to draw the sideboard we have in the hallway. I gave it 30 seconds and then decided to leave it.
I did this small sketch the other day. We don’t get any newspaper home and I don’t buy any news. I use internet for information and when I see one of the towns two free papers I take a copy.
